Missing Dad

I recently lost my father due to complications from strokes. He died 4 yrs ago and they brought him back. He always said, "God brought me back for a reason but I'm not sure why". I know why, he taught me so much the past 4 yrs. I have learned to listen more & try to understand people better. Dad was a great at listening. He found something good in everyone he met and focused on the good in them. He really was a lot like my heavenly father. He set such good examples for me in the last few years. He was such a humble man. During his last 11 days on this ,on his death bed, he praised God. He would raise his hands and say "I love my Jesus". What a witness! I received many cards of encouragement upon his passing. Some from nurses who were touched by his faith. Some Christians, some non-Christians. We never know just when God is going to use us. I remember when he died 4 years ago I flipped completely out. I screamed, hollered, jumped up and down acting like some 2 year old. Then I found out they brought him back. Those memories I am not very proud of. However, upon his passing December 26th, 2009 at 12:53 p.m. I had peace. I had the assurance of knowing he was with Jesus. He was in no more pain, he would never hurt again! The peace I had could have only come from God. It was an amazing experience. Then I begin to think of what I had lost. I would never see his face, speak to him again or hold him again while on this earth. I began sobbing. Sobbing for my loss, for me. I missed him so much and only a few minutes had passed. The next few days were so overwhelming. But with no regrets on my part. God give me 11 days with him. We must have told each other we love you hundreds of times. More than I could count. I rarely and I do mean rarely ever remember us telling each other that. What a gift God give me!!! Missing you so very much dad, I love you!!! your baby daughter.